Ser-Lhe A Dado

Most likely because my mission was by far the most spiritual time of my life, I often think spiritually in Portuguese. The title of this post translates to "it will be given him". This was certainly my experience during Women's Conference. (Yes, yes, it's time for the religious insights. I can't have my posterity thinking I was nothing but a goofball.)

For the past couple of years, I have struggled with some very negative feelings towards an individual in my life. It has consumed me at times, and I have felt hate and anger like I didn't know I was capable of feeling. I have sought out advice, I have wanted to rid myself of those feelings, but I have not been successful.
I went to Women's Conference with the sole purpose of finding an answer to this struggle. And you know... I did. I went to a variety of workshops, covering such topics as Strengthening Your Marriage, Building Faith, and Finding Happiness Amid Fear. Even though the topics were all different, I continually heard the same messages. This is the doctrine of personal revelation. It is a key component of the LDS church. We believe God hears and answers prayers, and that we can seek out His will for us. It's not just a blind faith... like pray and God will provide. That's where our doctrine of works comes into play. We have to be willing to go and do what the Lord commands.
So if the Lord commands you to let go of hate in your heart, you just have to do it. If He commands you to forgive, to pray, to seek Him out, then you do it. And in turn, His grace will compensate for our lack of ability to be perfect in those commandments. In this instance, those things have been hard for me. But I truly felt the desire to reframe my thoughts, to discipline myself mentally, and to move forward. I recognize that I have no control over what other people do. I may have to deal with this situation for years and years. But how I handle the situation inside of myself is a direct reflection of my faith. Someone quoted a scripture that said "I will order all things for your good as fast as ye are able to receive them."
This process is continual. I am thankful the Lord saw fit to order a few more things for my good, that in His time I have become more prepared to accept this principle and apply it in my life. I recognize my responsibility in handling this trial, but I gratefully accept His guidance in doing so. E ser-lhe a dado... what was given me was peace. That comforting scripture in John 14:27... "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give unto you" The Savior left His disciples with that peace in their time of need, and surely He does the same for each of us.
Will I ever be perfect in this trial? I don't know. But I am thankful to be taught line upon line, and I recognize the love of my Savior in my life. Estou grata que foi me a dado.